Another new year. Another year older. Another year closer to death. hahas. :)
Spent the new year eve with aisyah this year. Hung out as always. Playground. hahas. Den got the mat and minah clan. wth. dress up nak mampos stakat nak new year kat playground. hahas.
Anyways, we decided dat we never took much photos even aft being friends for like 6 years now. hahas. so we took ALOT yest. and i mean ALOT!. so i posted some here. hahas.

New year. Forgotten all the shit that was in 07'. Moving on to a better life in 08'. We'll see how it goes. So much things to settle. So much things to get. So much things to STUDY! ahh. hahas.

Oh i think this new year was e best. Cos my countdwn was like staying at home, watching x-mean trilogy on starmovies, den the only way i knew it was midnight, was wen i heard ppl screaming from the neighbouring blocks. hahas. =)

*31st December 2007. A day to never forget. Thanks to u dil. <3 (:*

Thanks to aisyah for intro-ing me to the font dwnld website, i've been high on editing pics with the new fonts. esp wen im bored. like now. yea. hahas. =)

this last one is by far my mos fav. lols. cos i love the font! :)

I'm writting this post. Cause a moment ago. I just... The thought of u just came up. Maybe cause i found an old pic of u, of us in my wallet. No tears this time. Jus a stabbing pain straight through the heart. My day went all wrong aftwrds. sighs.

Goes out to u. Even if ur already long gone in my life. U kept ur distance. N later on i kept mine. Guess this is jus how it goes. I wish to meet u to say everthing out. Its not nice to me. To tell u by sending an email. I hope u understand. U showed me what i was supposed to do by doing what u did. so yea. Thanks for everything. Hope next year's better than this year. U'll always be a friend. :)

Who knew - Pink

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh

That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them up
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no

I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
For they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep

My darling
Who knew

My darling
My darling
Who knew

My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

Blogging before continue-ing my last 4 chpts in GM. den can move on to AC. yay!
(wth? why am i being so effing studious?)

Anyways, was sick this morn. i woke up so early den slept so late yest. grr. and its a bloody saturday!! grrrrr....

ok so when i heard we were going JB tml, i went and forced myself to go teach tuition today instead of tml. I went there, and dat lil boy wasnt home. hahas. so i did half my revision while waited. I swear i was in no mood to teach. hahas. n i know he wasnt on the mood to study. wth.
but by ending of it, i was freaking happy. cos i gt my $$! hahas. and bloody hell, my adek dpt cos my aunt kate she gt bonus so once in a while can give. grr. dat lil sloth.

yea so im at home. i know mummy was happy. cos i gave her $$. and yes she was smiling. so was VBI. he was dozing off to slp wen i gt back. den when he heard i gt money and kacang for him, he woke up. till now. he's at e tevee. hahas. lil freak. (yes i call my adek a freak cos he calls me dat too)

oh oh. he's starting school next week! yay! hahas. but i'll b alone in e morn. damit. oh wells. at least i'll get a few hrs of tevee before he gets home. :)

i'm off. study. right. more like partially distracted and study. :)

my uber distracted friend finished her ppt! yay. hahas. :)

ahh ok so now Que know my secret abt knight and more. hahas. :)
we shall leave it as smth to keep between us ok?

oh n i jus found out seh that southpark's bdae is the same bloody mnth as mine! Like one week earlier?! wth!! hahas.

My cousin gt into ITE Bishan. Congrats to her! hahas. she'll be in e same school as Aisyah! hahas. Good luck with ur interview my dear! U'll ace it for sure! =)

Oh n guess who gt into ITE Simei..
Aidil! hahas. omg. we were like talking abt it the other day and now he got in. great. hahas. he'll b looking out to get me for sure. hahas. *save me!*
I'm still in shock. hahas. omg. wth. hahas.

ok so im meeting aisyah tml den go farhan hse den home den more study. omg. wad a day. hahas.

im left with one more week of hols. grr.

Its not like me but im loving this song. love the meaning and beat and all. =)
Artist: Nlt
Song: She Said I Said

Don't know where to start s
omethin' ain't goin' right
Feel it in my soul cuz i've tried,
oh baby
Try to keep you satisfied,
please don't cry
I just think we both need time

I just feel that we are in the same room
But living two worlds apart
And it's causing too much pain

(She Said)
Baby can you please just stay
It ain't too late to work this thing out

(I Said)
Girl this ain't easy for me
At least the truth is comin' out

(She Said)
Why can't we make up like the last time
I'm just afraid to hear you say go

(I Said) Baby
I'm sorry, I think it's time we let go

Baby don't leave, don't leave don't leave
Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay
I Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave
Cuz I think it's time we let go

See these teardrops fallin' from your eyes
But that don't change my mind,
oh baby
Please don't make things more difficult then they gotta
be I can't take no more,
this is killing me
Everytime I look at you I see more
Reason for me to leave you
And it's causing me too much pain

(She Said)
Baby can you please just stay
It ain't too late to work this thing out

(I Said)
Girl this ain't easy for me
At least the truth is comin' out

(She Said)
Why can't we make up like the last time
I'm just afraid to hear you say go

(I Said)
Baby I'm sorry, I think it's time we let go

Baby don't leave, don't leave, don't leave
Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay
I Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave
Cuz I think it's time we let go

Baby don't leave, don't leave, don't leave
Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay
I Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave
Cuz I think it's time we let go

Baby can you please just stay
It ain't too late to work this thing out

(I Said)
Girl this ain't easy for me
At least the truth is comin' out

(She Said)
Why can't we make up like the last time
I'm just afraid to hear you say go

(I Said)
Baby I'm sorry, I think its time we let go

Baby don't leave, don't leave, don't leave
Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay
I Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave
Cuz I think it's time we let go

Baby don't leave, don't leave, don't leave
Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay
I Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave
Cuz I think it's time we let go

The world must have flipped inside out or smth.

I actually started studying and im done with molecular biology and am now at General Micro. wth?
my bro came up to me and said "who are you and what haveu done to my sister?"
hahas. ok maybe thats cause i didnt play halo 3 with him tadi. hees.
i feel weeird. i even turned down a chance to hang out with my parents when they are in e mood to go spending on the kids. grrr. *regrets*

oh wells. at least the internet is back and running. =)

Its been a boring and long day. Ripping songs, deleting pics, studying, cursing at MY com (cause bro say he made it faster and it wasnt. it was slower than ever!). Thank god for aisyah's mash ups. hahas. Made me smile. yay! hahas.

Tmrw's supposedly to go farhan's hse for gathering. So yea. evening. Thank god its near my hse. hahas. bedok to bedok. phew.

*currently with a grumbling tummy and in no mood to study! need coffee!*

I stare on the floor to my right and i see this ball made of scrunched up papers and taped together. brings back memories. Esp the old pri school days when we used to do it and played soccer during recess. Gosh. Ok n i rmbr one flying to a teacher's head. hahas. Those where e days.

Updating for yesterday. Cause ppl asked me abt it. And i gt home rite b4 midnight yest den malas nak update. =)

Today's boxing day eh? tak salah ar. hahas. heard abt it on e radio yest.

Aft sooo long i finally went to teach tuition again yest. Made it a fast one cos e lil boy was fringgin restless. yea sure cos his daddy was playing game and e volume was up soo loud even he couldnt concentrate. hahas.
Was suppose tp meet aidil aft dat. Den he say he end work late so instead i went by to aisyah's hse to help her with her project. Funny lah. hahas. Ok so here's the thing. We were researching photos abt aids. den we stumbled upon this one. Which is like sooo... uhh... eww. hahas. i wun put e pic up cos its so sick and it gives me nightmares. hahas.
In the pic the girl was like doing it with the spider and the guy was doing it with the scorpian. hahas. think if u went to google and search under 'aids' den sure can see wan lah. if nt tell me i send e pic to u. hahas.

Left her place like 9 plus? Den went back home to put my stuff den go out again with her to hang out. We spent the time listeing to the radio den made requests and such. was funny lahs. hahas. think we stayed till almost midnight. i swear if mum didnt msg me to go up we's stay down longer! hahas. And we're like gona repeat the same thing next year before my bdae. hahas. =)

But i still cant get over the fact that mum tak marah seh. All she did was like say "kau buat ape ar kat bawah lame2?". hahas den dah. i feel bad seh that she nvr scold me. Its like usually if i do dat she's already ground me for a week. hahas. ok i should b thankful. i guess. ... hahas.

Aite im off. need help do more research for aisyah and plus need to rip songs and such. hahas.
update again later.

Case Of The Missing Towels

I went to the towel cabinet and found no towels. So i went to mum's room and took the one squirt just tooked out earlier. Then mum went "i just put 6 in there and ur taking his". So i went "well take a look for urself!". So she went and took a look den she went all quiet and was muttering under her breath. geez.

aite all dat meant nth. i jus needed to write it down. =)

anyways, spent my christmas day at pasir ris park with mummie, daddie, squirt, nephew, cuzzie and auntie. Didnt blade today. Cause the track was wet so i cycled. Penat seh. i sped like crazy ar. hahas. Funnie, now my right hand which i sprained last week, hurts more plus gt a new vein sticking out. wow. hahas. my nephew was making fun of it.

Ok so i feel bad cos i told aidil i will try to meet him at forum but in the end tak gi cos i was stuck at aunt's place till 8 like dat. Plus he ended early den he wanted to meet at bedok. gosh. at least he just called den everything like ok ar so im a lil relieved. sorry!!

oh yea. the list i made. hahas. i have one more thing to add. GET CONTACT LENS! =)
i so wan it. hahas. cos my bro's been bugging me to get it cos he says i look better w/o specs and i went "since when did u care?" hahas. he gt pissed and went to work. man that made my day. hahas.

Got a full week seh. Tml tution, den gathering with the mindchamps peeps. Miss the whole bunch. plus daniel! gawd. we cldnt get him for tml. :(

den thur, uhh. not confirmed ar. mos likely study? yea sure. if im up to it.
den fri farhan gatheirng. den saturday is east coast with friends. soo much things to do...
*i was suppose to post this yesterday ar. den aidil called me den i met up with him den by e time i gt back da malas. plus i promised squirt i would play halo 3 with him (which for the first time i won! yay!). hahas. so yea*

oh oh. i ate this type of shell fish yesterday. They call it "gong gong" in malay. think dats how its to be spelled. hahas. its...uhh... nice? hahas. at least i aint allergic to it and there's no sand type taste. hahas. =)

After being pissed for being stood up again...
i dun wana remember that anymore.

i hung out with uhh, knight as he wana b called, hahas. He's so sweet la. I met him being pissed and all. then he gave me a rose and yes, he forced me to eat choc. hahas. he made me feel better all over again. yea. thank u sweetie for making me smile again!

went to lunch wit em at parkway. Met aidil there. So long seh tak jumpe. We used to go to school together every morn cos we live next block to each other. hahas. Met him aft his work in the evening and walked to his flat arnd there cos i wanted to waste time going home. He's annoying as always, ok he's upgraded to poking me rather than jus teasing me now. hahas. oh n i jus found out he moved! gosh. and next year further. grr.
ok ppl i'll make this clear. Aidil's was from my sec sch. He's like a close friend cos we always used to talk (talk, more like shout from each other's bedroom window! hahas.). serious. he's fun lah. hahas. hope he gets into ITE college east. =)

Ok so before i met aidil, i was at home, cleaning my room finally. (means i jus cleared my table and re arranged my drawers. hahas.) While i was "cleaning", hahas, i found soo much old gifts and it made me smile. Those from my abg, my cuzzie, my friends. gosh. i miss the old days. =(
i took pics of some of em. hahas. Que will like one of the cards. Cos its all purple. And its from mark and spenser (from UK!) hahas.

Ok so i just got back. and im tired. and im chatting to so many ppl. hahas. ok so ppl, jus enjoy the pics ok?

Let you go - Ashley parker Angel
Its exactly how i feel. Dammit. y didnt i find this song earlier. =)

Broken promises
But you don't really mind
It's not the first time and you know it
Don't you now

Tell me why it is you only smile inside
But when you break me into nothing
Don't you know

It's not like I haven't tried over and over again
Stupid fights, wrong or right
Goodbye

[Chorus:]
I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
Know I don't wanna
But I gotta let you go

You're the one mistake I really didn't mind
So beautiful, unmerciful
It took me down
Too little and too late
See now I know your kind
You fake it easy just to please me
Don't you know

It's not like we haven't tried over and over again
Sleepless nights, wrong or right
Goodbye

[Chorus]
I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
Know I don't wanna
But I gotta let you go

I gotta let you go
It's you
There's nothing I can do

[Chorus]
I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
Know I don't wanna
But I gotta let you go

NEVER BE UNGRATEFUL TO YOUR SISTER!
hahas. squirt sure learnt that lesson. =)

ahh. baru nak update. da kene gi ambek die. grr. y m i such a good sister to him? geez. i need to teach him how to go home. hahas. =)

ppl, give me ur comments pls. dun ask y i did it. i jus need to know if its nice or realistic or smth. thanks!

I'm sorry darling, but you are by far the worst liar i ever met. hah. so not suprised. Jerk.

Actual post starts here..
=)

Its raining. Again. this suck actually. Cos i planned to go run. den now, aiyo. no night run tonight. sighs.

Stuck at home the whole freakin day uploading vid in my player and watching saw 3 with squirt who screamed at every anti climax moment there was in e show. hahas. freaky brother.

Looking foward to tml actually. Blading. Finally. hahas. even if it will be with my parents and squirt and my nephew. Another baby sitting job on the way. Great.

*Lookie mum, look how "great" my life is now. geez*

Sometimes i just wish i could lock myself in bro's room and blast his speakers till the neighbour below complains. Ok so i COULD do it. BUT, i dun think i would. Just look at his room. Ok those hu ever came over to my hse before will know wad i mean. Seriously, his room, is more like a pig stye. =)


- boy i wish u wouldnt move soo fast. I'm not ready to go on with another. -

Word of the day : ALONE

bloody hell my right eye's pounding in its socket. wtf.

2 more days. its all u gt left. its all i gt left. 2 more days and this decision of mine is final. i'm sorry.

HEAR ME OUT!::
i dont want anyone right now. i just want to be alone. i dont want to be tied down. i wana have fun. no more repeats of the past. just looking fwd to fun and finishing school in peace. thank u.

ok. i know many cant see wad i wrote. so here. i'll list it out for u ppl ok?
hahas. * the bloody list which i fell alsp writing. =) *

Things to be done:
1) Get car license
2) Save up for car license. :)
3) Clean room! (as if)
4) Get OWN laptop!
5) Save $3000 for laptop! - VAIO! hahas
6) Get 'A' for GM
7) Get 'A' for LM
8) Pass well for other subs (which means get an 'A')
9) Get POLY attachment!
10) *clears throat* leave him!
11) Stay single for a year! (hees.)
12) ** SORT OUT MY LIFE**
13) get back in contact with old friends
14) Regain trust of parent (this is gona b a lil hard)
15) Join CCA ~ archery?
16) Learn Chinese
17) go sentosa - spend Spend SPEND!
18) Hang out for new year!
19) get a bear from bear factory! ( oh oh! i know y i said this! cause i wana get the black fire fighter bear for bro! yea! it resemble him! hees)
*words in brackets are my comments!

ok so there.
noe wad, my bro jus came in, just to say *kak, look what they gave me*, its a check book. he's all high on it. And all i can say is, write me a check for $4000 and make it snappy! hahas. im such a good sister! hees! =)

**i hope ur reading this. may u stress on number 10. Be happy for me syg. im making the decision for you. no more waiting and hoping for u. Im moving on w/o u.**

I'm hooked on waffles! (no not my friend waffles! though i miss her. n i missed her party! sorry babe! *guilt*) Mummy started buying em and i follow her go buy the other day. So like i claim all waffles that I bought is mine! hahas. Waffle breakfast for the next 3 days! weee~ =)

I still cant believed i ripped britney's song, for MUM. omg. ok.

Was at Que's hse aft struggling with the song ripping thingy. hahas. was late. soo many things happened. Tell u wad, u wana see, go read QUE's blog. but its private. so yea. not EVERYONE can see. hehes.
Me and Huda were the last to leave. hahas. we hung out at Que's room, as expected so purple. hehes. Huda was hooked to the PSP and me and Que were, how shall i put it, "discriminating" guys. hahas. oh and we found smth new we have in common. hahas.She knows. i think dats gd enuf. hahas.
Den aft lotsa laughing and giggling and ranting and looking arnd in her room, me and huda left. Went to white sands. I bought more honey sticks! hahas. they are freakin nice lah. n squirt had to take the lemonade wan. grr.
I got home rite before 10pm! see that mum! BEFORE 10PM! i was in the hse 2mins before time. hahas. =)

**Side story
- i dont mind ppl smoking.
- i dont mind friends smoking
- i dont mind my bro smoking.
- But i mind a guy hu called me his, smoking and lying to me abt it esp aft he swore.
- I mind ppl i love smoking. But if i cant help em, i can do nth.
**end

my morning was spoilt by u. asshole.

Ok im just high cos i FINALLY get to rip songs myslef. hees. Thanks to Aisyah! u rock! =)
I think im gona have 3 posts today. hahas. cos i mite b posting sumore aft i get back from Que's gathering. oooh.

I am so currently addicted my old time fav song SCARS - papa roach. This song so have lots of meaning to me lah. Esp goes out to him. hope he see's it. =)
I'm high. hahas. ok i cant believe i ripped britney's a piece of me and rihanna don't stop the music. britney's one for mum(omg! what have the world come to!) and rihanna's for squirt (omg my bro is an r&B addict!). this scares me. hahas. modern age mum and oh so soft lil bro. ewww!! save me!

*my guilt concious if blowing off the roof!*
how can i put this...
i just feel bad. For both sides. Gawd. What have i done now?
~Love is smth i wana rid off my life for a whole freaking year!

ok. crap. block it out.

I miss my dear joker Syahrul and i miss my purple - loving, ms tree hugger close fren Que! hees! :)

oh the joy of blood baths and killing sprees i used to watch on tv. i miss em all. gosh.
Happyteefriends running in the rain with bloody weapons in hand trying to kill one another.
oh such joy in such murderous thoughts. hees. sadist in me is back. thanks for letting it return mr.

ok im hooked to 2 songs.
Its ok - Atomic Kittens
*for u my once used to be sayang*

I remember all the nights I used to stay at home,
On the phone, all night long,
used to talk about the things we'd really wanna do,
I believed in you,

I remember how you used to say,
Have no fear,
It'll be ok,
When you told me anything you want is possible,
we could have it all.

I believed in you,
I must have been a fool,
All my dreams where with you...

::Chorus::
I say it's ok,
I can't promise you it's alright,
you ain't keeping me up all night, no more,
You're not here but it's ok,
I assure you, babe,
it's alright,
you ain't keeping me up all night,
no more,
You're not here but it's ok.

Well, now you got to
where you wanted like I knew you would,
Cash, car, house,
It's all good,
As to why you never come around
here no more, Like you did before.

You got it all thats the way it seems,
looks like you,
with your dream,
better hope you life had
turned out for the better now,
when I'm not around.

I believed in you,
I must have been a fool,
All my dreams where with you...

::Chorus::
I say it's ok,
I can't promise you it's alright,
you ain't keeping me up all night,
no more,
You're not here but it's ok,
I assure you, babe, it's alright,
you ain't keeping me up all night,
no more, (no more)
You're not here but it's ok.

Its all right, it's okay {x3}
That you're not here with me

Its all right, it's okay {x3}
That you're not here with me

::Chorus::
I say it's ok,
I can't promise you it's alright,
you ain't keeping me up all night, n
o more, You're not here but it's ok,
I assure you, babe,
it's alright, you ain't keeping me up all night,
no more, (no more)
You're not here but it's ok.

Its all right, it's okay {x3}
That you're not here with me

Its all right, it's okay {x3}
You're not here but its ok.

AND scars - papa roach.
*ok so both songs are for u k*

I tear my heart open, I sew myself
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]


ok im late. im gone. update later. cya!

ok so i dunoe if u can see it properly or nt. hahas. if u cant and u wana see it tag me and i'll mail it to u or smth okies? =)

I like so freakin need to get my license since i gt the green light from mummy and daddy. Gawd. they only agreed cos im gona pay it myslef plus mum says wen i get it, i'm the new driver in the hse (means i gota drive her arnd. great). Then i so wana get my laptop. New one. since bro took over the other wan. aiming for VAIO! i saw this red one and im so in love with it and its so freakin light and its also so FREAKIN EXPENSIVE! (buy it for my bdae? hahas)

Im so hyped up to go meet my pals for Que's gathering later. i feel so confined at home. Esp wen mum's on hols. all i hear is "nag nag nag nag". gawd. i need air. Plus my hang out buddy is like overseas. sheesh. wad a way to spend the hols. =)

I miss school already. Damn. I dunnoe, school makes me forget all my worries and troubles. Sighs. Hectic scheduals are so cool sometimes. * honestly im freakin myself out*

Ahh. ok. Last words before i go.

To my dear friend Has, hey dude. meet up soon. hahas. chat more later! ;)

To my dear lil god bro, ur on hols and u gt sick! wth! hahas. take care and get well soon! =)

To that guy, if ur still undecided, i'll decide for u ok?...meet mon and i'll clear it out. *squirt still wan e tees back luhhs! cari kan lahs!*

To a friend whom im helping, dude, things will b ok. Jus chill out ok? I'll help u if u need me. :)

To my other many ppl hu read this blog. PLS TAG ME AND LEAVE ME COMMENTS ABT THE SKIN! THANKS! hees!

To my fwenz...

I MISS U PPL! WHERE U ALL DISAPPEAR TO! GAWD! HAHAS

Lastly to dear cuzzie syeek,

ok ok i'll do my best to get u a pair of new blades next year! hahas.

thanks for reading ya'll.

cheers!

*moving on. move on. moving fwd. thanks for letting me be...

Hey ppl. ur probably wondering abt all these changes. well to update u all, i made a new blog as u can see. its a new start. so be "entertained" by fresh posts and a new lifestyle of me! hees. jus wana move on from the past. so yea, enjoy reading ok? n if u wana see my old posts tell me. i'll find a way to get em here for u kays?
take care ya'll. hope u like e new blogskin n all.