"Maybe one day u'll see. How much u really mean to me. Or used to mean to me. I trusted u soo much. It hurt real bad to let u go. But i guess its time. To move on. I'm just glad we're still friends. Even though there's this great feeling of hate for you brewing inside. I'll try my best to let it die down. But i can make no promises. I just cant believe u did it to me. Then left w/o a word. If that's ur way of saying goodbye. Then this is what i have to say. You're no man in my eyes. You're just another lowly coward. I'm sorry. But thats just how i feel. Good luck. Hope u moved on better than i did. (:"

The scars are jus reminders. Of how stupid i was to think that u'd last. I actually believed in ur words. And now im scared for life. As i glance down on my left wrist. I smile as i think back on the day. Of how i used to hurt myself. When i knew i hurt u. Those nights i cried. Just mere memories of how deep i felt for you. Gawd. I feel so stupid now.

But despite of all the hate and bittersweet memories of u, i still have to thank you. For the experience of being with you showed me the truth about the world. About you. About reality. You showed me what i should and shouldnt do. You showed me that i deserve better that wad i use to have and believed. Thanks for all that and all the gifts and such. They're always treasured by me.

Thanks for pushing me to the extreme.