Never thought that this is the day when the past repeats itself agin. Never know turning 18 hurts so much. Never knew how much i truly love them. Never knew i's cry this hard again.

I thought i'd stopped. And that would b the last. Didnt know today so many things pushed me to the extreme. the last time i did it, was like 3 mnths ago. i thought it's stp there. No more repeats. no more relapses. Guess i was wrong. i've yet to learn better self control with myself.
The moment that one drop of crimson red fell on my bed, i knew, this will go on for a while...

Best news of the day. My fever shot up to 45 degrees. weee~ maybe it'll fry my brain sumhow. hahas. (:

I cant believe this. After 18 years, i only now finally realize how much i love them. Those 4. The 4 people closest to my heart. Esp VBI. he's like e first person to make my day today. He made me laugh so much till i teared up. thanks squirt. (:
*always trying to look on e briter side of life*

Ok i honestly think part of my brain is fried. cos my head burns and my heads heavy. hahas. suckie. oh well. better then letting all that red liquid flow. i swear doc's gona want to kill meif he found out! cos i broke my clean record. gawd.

Oh oh. Last thing. Thanks for being arnd Zaid! u helped me nt slp at sch and i helped u nt slp at theory! hahas. (:

+thanks to all for the gifts and wishes k! means alot to me. take care guys. (:+