i just feel like really blogging today.
God knows why but yea.
Its just like that.

Ok so yest i came home damn late. Just right before midnight.
obviously my parents weren't happy.
but hey.
Dad did say i can reach home BEFORE MIDNIGHT,
and i did. like 5 mins before?
hee.
(seriously its totally thanks to my dear speed demon greenie. hehe)

Today.
Was an ok day.
Was at the arts hse.
Finally met Ain and Jerome.
Den reality caught up to me
I realize how much more my family need me then ever.
Esp mum.
Gosh.
Never knew it could get so bad.
I feel guilty.
I've been out so much its like i neglected my own family.
Crap.
But i really didnt mean to.
Sighs.
I'm home now
Happy dad?

Been reading posts from my friends.
guess everyone's got their ups and downs these days.
Its the hols
we're supposed to enjoy.
right?
maybe it just doesnt go that way for everyone.
And i realized.
I'm not alone.
Cos so many others are feeling down too.
One way or another.
I wish you guys the best.
Hope things work out soon.
Pls try to enjoy your hols ok?

I feel crappy all of e sudden.
Maybe i havent been living up to my parents standards.
Ok i definately have not.
i went to ITE.
i've been damn rebelious.
i'm rarely around.
i cant understand my parents.
neither can they to me.
sighs.

I'm sorry for not being the perfect daughter.
I'm sorry for not being the good two shoes you've always wanted me to be.
I'm sorry for going against your words.
I'm sorry for not making it in life the way u expected me to.
I'm sorry to not live up to your expectations.
I'm sorry to not have made you proud the way you wanted.
I'm sorry for doing things i shouldnt have.
and i'm esp sorry for making you cry.