My Blast To The Past

Its 2.40am and i'm still wide awake.
Think its cos of the "sccidental" nap i had in the evening.
hehe.

Anyways,
i got bored.
So i went reading through my old olD oLD OLD posts.
From both my old and new blog.
Those old memories can really make u laugh.
And tear up.
I feel guilty.
Sometimes all at the same time.
I finally understand.
Why he said i changed.
sighs.
But oh wells.
It happens.
At least i changed and became stronger.
(:

I thank god for new friends.
I thank god for old friends.
I thank god for my family.
I thank god for my life.
I thank got i met you.
Though we never lasted.
It taught me alot.
Thank you all.
For making my life all the more interesting.
To go on living.
(:

*i glanced at my left wrist today. I saw the remainder of my scars. The one i carved in. Made me smile. Laugh a lil. Then made me recall my OD days. hees. Almost said goodbye then. Crimson red blood plus purity in those blue-white tablets. Oh the rush of relief it gave eating the pain away, covering previous pain with better ones. Numbing me from top to bottom. I miss those days.*
-i just can't believe i did all that cos of u. hmm.