Helloooo all my beloved ppl! hahas.
Ok im just high on laughter. (:

Was watching Wedding Daze. Funny movie. Seriously. M18 though. hahas
Got this lil quote from it.
Which totally makes sense.
To me at least.

Love is like the circus.
When its good. Really good.
Its beautiful. Terrifying and amazing.
All at the same time.


I guess in a way thats what love is really like.
Right?
hahas.
Honestly, to me. I shall say. I don't know.
Cause i'm only so young. *step je muda sngt*
And my definition of love now.
Might not be the same in future.
When im really matured.
yea.
hahas.
*i feel old.*

Even random shows like this makes me think.
Like REALLY make me think.
At some point i have made a wrong turn.
Ok not A but A LOT of wrong turns.
Yet, something in me won't let me go back the right way.
Geez.
Someone brainwash me again pls.
sighs.

Ok enough of all the sap stories.
I think there's better things in life other than brooding.
Yes?
*ok i have to admit. i say it. but sometimes i can't help but do it. So yea.*
**really hating myself now. geez**

end note.
I... ...F...E...E...L... ...S...O... D...U...M...B...

-kill me will you-

*insert all possible known curses there is*
argh.

Rotting at home today.
Been watching movies.
2 days ago i did an online diagnosis for myself.
n i swear to god i hate the outcome!
Im freaking out and wanting medical attn immediately.
cos im hoping it aint true.
only VBI knows abt it now.
gawd.
all the symptoms.
fck.
all the bloody same!
:(

Dun feel liek blooging much.

Going to Vivo tmrw go study.
In the evening.
For those hu wana tag along message me ok.
I'll tell u e details.
and when i mean study.
i mean "study"
cos i plan to slack and chill and talk crap with friends more rather then
study study.
hahas
The real study process shall begin from monday onwards.
Time to buck up and aim for my 4.0 score in BCT!
woots!
(:

side note:
kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill mekill mekill me kill me kill me kill me...
and if the diagnosis is really true...
kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill mekill mekill me kill me kill me kill me!!

I fcking LOVE this song!
Sooo relates to me now.
haix.
The other side of me.
Lovin' it baby!
xD
p.s: I LOVE THE BAND TOO!
- scars rocks! -

Alive
Papa Roach

For crying out loud I’m running from a comedown
God forbid I know I’ve been a letdown
Reaching for the sky while laying in a gutter
Kicking and screaming I am screaming bloody murder
I am screaming bloody murder
I am screaming bloody murder

I’m alive when I’m vulnerable
I’m out of control I’m losing my soul
I’m alive when I’m vulnerable
I’m out of control I’m losing my soul

I can’t be your angel when I’m living like a devil
Can’t be your lover when I’m living like a rebel
Don’t want your pity and I don’t want your help
Don’t try and save me go take care of yourself
Go take care of yourself
You better take care of yourself

I’m alive when I’m vulnerable
I’m out of control I’m losing my soul
I’m alive when I’m vulnerable
I’m out of control I’m losing my soul

Sick of the pain I’m sick of the sorrow
Sick of today I’m sick of tomorrow
I’m addicted to the misery in my head
I better stop before I end up dead

So I climb to the top just to fall to the bottom
And I climb to the top just to fall to the bottom

I’m alive when I’m vulnerable
I’m out of control I’m losing my soul
I’m alive when I’m vulnerable
I’m out of control I’m losing my soul

I can’t be your angel when I’m living like a devil
Can’t be your lover when I’m living like a rebel
Don’t want your pity and I don’t want your help
Don’t try and save me go take care of yourself

STOP & STARE
- one republic


This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh

Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh

Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need
What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...

Wednesday.
Mid week.
Nearing to the end of my ever so torturous holiday.
Sighs.

Was in a rush to go sch.
So i ended up not bringing my hp.
Thanks to Edvin for lending me his.
(:

Kinda like not having a hp wid me.
So peaceful.
hahas.

Oh.
Biggest news today.
I FINALLY WATCHED KUNG FU PANDA!
yea i know its like sooo long ago.
I just didnt hv the time.
sighs.
anyways,
i love the tigress.
hahas.
maybe only cos i love tigers.
and the turtle ofcos.

Talking abt tigers.
I have my lovely white tiger infront of me now.
Tiberius.
hee.
Love her. (:

OK so aft that.
I went looking for old songs.
Kinda fun.
Got loads of em.
(:

VBI gave me this website.
Talking bout CHOCOLATES!
and how they BENEFIT YOU!
so my dear ladies.
No harm indulging in them once in a while!
(:

Lemme let u in on a lil secret of mine.
My 2 deadly sins when its dealing with food.
Chocolate and Ice Cream!
hahas.
Devouring them heavenly.
Screw the bad bits abt them.
;)

Anyways, here's the site.
If u can't go.
Then go to www.msn.com.
In search, type chocolatology.
Chocolatology by Sally Wadyka

Long day.
Won't say much.
This pic is so RANDOM!
lol.
Ok.
Update later.
Take care ya'll!

I can't believe i managed to wake up extra early today.
Like at 5am?
All cause i left my student ID card with Ash.
Gosh.

Morning went to get the card from him.
Canceled the plan to go sch with mum and all.
Ended up waking late despite the fact that a lot of people msged me.
And i mean a lot!
hahas.

Reached school late.
Mistook the timing for the crystal growing.
Sighs.
My morning went seriously wrong!
Thank god things went better aft that.

Zoul and Aisyah came over to do some interact stuff.
(yea sure interact stuff)
hahas
we were more like side-tracking the whole time.
hehe.

Aft all that.
Zoul went home.
I followed Aisyah for a bit.

Ok so here's the best part of the entry.
I think mostly entertaining for girls only.
hahas.

The official "Guys Gone Wrong Day"
hahas. no offence guys! this is just being told in general ok?
(:

Followed a friend to meet a guy today.
A guy she JUST met and he wanted to meet up.
So we went.
The guy was late.
(typical modern day guys!)
So we waited.
And waited.
And waited
Until,
this guy came by riding on his cool bike.
He went pass us.
But while riding pass, he stared at e both of us.
Then, he stopped a few meters in front of us.
He even had the initiative to look back.
Though he never called out any name.
We stood there staring and wondering if he was e guy my friend was to meet.
But then he rode off.

So my friend called him.
No reply.
The he came back.
Though on the opp side of the road.
This time, at least (thank god)
He had the initiative to call out my friend's name.
Hahas.
We both laughed non-stop.
(:

Ok so he called her name.
Fine.
BUT
Instead of turning to out side of the road.
He parked his bike.
And SHOUTED from across the road when there were so many vehicles driving past!
*tsk tsk tsk. ape je bdk tu*
Aft a while of shouting.
THEN he u-turned his bike.
By that time i walked foward leaving my friend with him.
But i swear i was laughing!

Then he sped off.
My fren caught up with me.
We walked on talking abt it.
Laughing our arses off ofcos.

Ok then we were at the bus stop.
Waiting for the bus.
Which took forever to come.
Then 228 passed by.
We managed to catch a glimpse of people in the bus.
There were these 2 guys.
At first when we saw them
They were like intently talking to one another.
One in the front seat.
One in the back.
Then they saw us.
Immediately they stopped talking.
Faces filled with awe.
It was like the mouth almost gapped open.
Like those jaw gonna drop to the floor kind.
(i'm not exaggerating! really!)
They stared directly at us! (la seyy!)
All the way till the bus pull out of the bus stop.
Then they still have time to give us a wave.
Me and my friend laughed like mad!
hahas.

Tonight was like the best night to the ke-beylo-an kaum lelaki! (guys silly mistakes!)
So fun to laugh about it.
Hahas.
Really enjoyed my night.
(:

Guy, i hope your not offended.
I swear i never made any of this up.
I just wanted to share for a lil laugh.
If you happened to be offended.
Sorry ok!
No hard feeling!
(:

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You posted my short story/poem on your comment.
It was like YOU posted it
And i'm like so SHOCKED and HONORED at the same time!
OMG!
You're so full of surprises!
That's one of the many reasons that i fell for you.
Thanks so much for making my day my dear.
I l y s m !
Muaks!
(:
♥ ♥ ♥

The Roving Toke.
by SD

He,
The Roving Toke.
Wanted by many.
Yet they don't get him.
Treasured by some.
Those who truly cares.

His mind is set.
Only to one he will stay.
No commitments yet.
No pain he wishes to give.
To the one he cares for.

Roving.
Moving with the wind.
To wherever it takes him.
Resist himself for those others.
Cause only to one he will give.

She.
The Roving Toke-er.
Stands by the Roving Toke.
Shan't ever forget.
Will always remember.
Memories last forever.

Toker-er.
She may be.
Will wait for eternity.
Believing his words.
Don't break it now.
You all there is.
Her Roving Toke.

They.
The roving toke and toke-er.
Shan't be apart.
Though miles away.
In each other's heart they will stay.
Longing to give.
Wanting to take.

Words.
Harsh as they may be.
Just a part of life.
For they.
Are harsher then they may seem.
Hurt not each other.
Thus the distance apart.
But forever will the be.
The Roving Toke and Toke - er.
Never apart.


-Hope u meant your words.
-For i'll be waiting.
-My Roving Toke.
-For i'm your Roving Toke-er.

My very Very VEry VERy VERY LOOOOOOOOOOOONG week!
Barely had rest this whole week.
I'm obviously lacking of slp.
And i doubt i can catch up on it looking at my upcoming schedule.
Damn. Im hating hols. And i miss being at home!
sigh.
anyways. moving on.










Out of the whole week, Friday was the best.
Though i was still buzzed cos of lack of sleep.
I got to spend the wee morning with the girls and the rest of the day with the one i love most.
Words said by you dear.
It really meant a lot to me.
Thank you.
Cos i finally heard the truth from you.
Ily. (:

This is the RANDOM part.
* I so need a laptop with extra large space in e HD!
* So much for contact!
* I swear to god i still hate you bitch! If you ever try to repeat the past agn this time i aint holding things back!

hellooooooo all.
hahas ok im jus bored.

Waiting for the gang to get back to neko's then i'm off!
Sleeping over there for the next 2 nights so yea obviously i wun be blogging. Unless i got time?
which will be impossible. hahas

Hitting the clubs tonite baby!
Attica!
kekekeke.
Nak join?

Ok lah go just to chill with my ladiez and one gent. hahas.
Can't wait to go hang with them lah. (:
i soooo need to just chill and have fun and forget all the shit that's been happening.
hmmmm.

Anyways,
guys sorry i couldnt make it to sentosa.
being sick and all.
Meet ya'll in a bit kies.

Still dunoe wad to wear though.
*eeek. ape ni aku?*

hahas. ok.
Saturday gonna mit the m.c gang.
Someone bdae coming rite.
hahas.

i wana blade lah!
i miss blading.
Friday BTT!
and lum blaja pun
hahas.
(:

My Life. An Open Book.

You walk in and out of my life. Do you realize that?
No your not forgotten. Cause while you walked about in my life.
You left footprints. You one specific kind.
Those that made you different from the rest. That reminds me who you are.

Those that leave memories in my mind. Bitter or sweet.
They will always be remembered. One way on another.
You. Yes you.
Left a big impact on me. You help make me who i am today.
If i never met you. God knows how i'd be like now.
Maybe not like who i am today. Maybe better. Maybe worse.

I thank you. For those special footprints you left behind.
For those footprints left behind memories. For they taught me in more

ways than one.
They mould me. Gave me knowledge.
Gave me the true sight of the real world.
I'm sorry if you don't like the way i am now. It couldn't be helped.
I'm not made to suit everyone's liking. I am who i am.
I am who i want to be. And i know.
Who i want to be. Is me.
An individual. One of a kind.
Special. Unique in my own way.
Yes i might have my downfalls. But hey, who doesn't?
Nobody's perfect. Not you. Not anybody. Definitely not me.

Please accept me the way i am. The way i want to be.
For all these things I do. Was from the memories you left behind.
When you left your footsteps. All over my life.
Its what i chose to follow. Its how i chose to change.
Its who i want to be. Its just me.

I understand if you can't accept that. For you are who you are.
Who you chose to be. Who you made yourself to be.
You have your own downfalls. Just like me.
I'm guilty. For you being who you are.
Cause once upon a time. I came into your life.
Leaving you my footprints. Leaving you memories of me.
Showing you. Teaching you.
Something new.

Wether you choose to be a friend or a fiend. I will accept it either way.
Cause you have your reasons. And i have mine.
I'm sorry if things went wrong. Maybe one day we'll work it out.

Thank you. For coming into my life.
Leaving your precious footsteps behind. Leaving memories that will

change me forever.
Thank you. For being a friend.
Once upon a time.

Pics taken at sch.

Hello all you 'bored and i got nth better to do so i'll go view this blog randomly' amazing people.
hehe.

Yes i've been away.
No not on holiday.
On piled up assignments.
Damit things are geting worse.
Owh wells.
Got loads of pics to upload here to show you all.
Mite suprise some of you oso.
hmm.
Yea.
But i'll post em another time.
Dead tired now.
Packed for the whole week.

BTT'S ON FRIDAY! AHH!
wish me luck aite!
hehe.

Okies. Thats it for now.
Take care ya'll!
Ciao!

"i'm glad we talked and i'm glad we cleared things out. Like you said, CONFIRM CONFUSED. i totally agree with it 100%. hehe. you know i care and now i noe you still do too. I'm thankful for that. Lets just hope things will work out for us one day. Only time will tell. Thanks for being around."
Ily and Imy

MY REPORT IS DONE AND SUBMITTED!
WOOHOOO!

But that's the least of my concerns now.
I've got MORE things to do!
Argh!

Lets see. This list is for my own benefit and for you ppl to understand why i cant make it to go hang out sometimes ok?

THE LIST:
- MLP assignment (so i heard)
- IC Blog
- Resume
- IC write up
- IC tee
- Env Club board game comp
- Hols assignments
- Study BCT
- BTT
- FTT
- Help VBI with poster
- IC practices
- IC Montage


Think that is all FOR NOW.
hahas. will update soon.
I guess.
Anyways,
im glad the report's over and done with.
At least i can take a breather. For a day only lah.
Sighs.
Owh wells.

i'm off.
Got this headache.
I hearts being sick sometimes.
Makes u feel great that ur normal.
hahas.
(:

Helloz all and welcome to another blogging session with me! SD!
hehehe.

Ok dat was sooooooo random.
Anyways,
Had sch.
Morning lect.
CSV less then 10 ppl showed up.
SO teach canceled the lesson.
kekeke.
baik ke pe cikgu.

Then MLP prac.
Got a hold of zul's laptop.
Stuck by it the WHOLE DAY.
hahas.
at least i managed to get some work done.
rite?
Met Aisyah (nursing fren) at school.
*danggup kau dtg seh. hahas*
den met zul and andrew.
Then we all headed down to tamp.
Walk2.
Talk2.
Den i had dinner with Aisyah ( my fren since pri sch)
hahas.
Finally back here.
yea.
Sleepy.
But yea.
Survivng.
hahas.
(:

OK.
So about yest question.
My honest ans is.
Yes. I would press the reset button.
BUT.
Not for all the petty stuff.
I'd press it for all the major stuff.
Like what i did to my parents.
And what i did to myself.
As much as it hurts till i wana go die.
If there's not a real need to,
i wont press that button.
I know my standings in life.
I'm old enough to think.
I had alot of experiences.
I'll make my own decisions from now on.
(:

Here's a lil smth for you to think abt.

Imagine that you have a reset button for your life.
How often would you press it and why?

Think about it.
Would you press it everytime you get sooo upset over smth?
Or would you ignore it and just move on with whatever is next in your life?
But the main question is...
Can u resist not pressing that button, even at the worst point in your life where all u want to do is turn back time and start over a gain?

Don't just answer. Really think about it. Are you lying to yourself?

If you ask me bout my ans. well its still pending. i'll update it in the next post aite!
(:

All i can blog abt this weekend.
Is....

ATOMIC ABSORPTION SPECTROSCOPY
FLAME AND GRAPHITE FURNACE
SAMPLE PREP
DRY ASHING
NITRIC ACID DIGESTION
HOLLOW CATHODE LAMP
CHROMATOGRAPHY
REPORT REPORT REPORT
much Much DISAPPOINTMENT

yes. and this will go on till i submit that report on thur.
sheesh.
im hating everything abt ac now.
hmph.
owh wells.
gota live with it.

good luck for MLP pract test tml guys!

Quick update before i get back to my torturous task of finishing up my report.
Currently in my mind. There's these 3 words. Huge font. In bold. Screaming out in my head.

ATOMIC ABSORPTION SPECTROSCOPY!

When it all ends and the report is submitted. That will be my biggest relief for now! (:

Anyways,
to the actual post.
The other day, while rummaging through the piles of books in my room.
I found this book my bro gave me or in a way passed on when i was in secondary school.
'Chicken Soup For The Teenage Soul'
Been reading it lately.
And today.
I found this one story that to me makes a lot of sense.
And it really reflects back on myself.
I'll share it here.
Enjoy guys!

Paint Brush
by Bettie B. Youngs

I keep my paint brush with me
Wherever i may go,
In case i ever need to cover up
So the real me don't show.
I'm so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you'll do-that
You might laugh or say mean things.
I'm afraid I might lose you.

I'd like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,
But i want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.
So if you'll be patient and close your eyes,
I'll strip off all my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.

Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love me with all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.

I need to save my paint brush, though,
And hold it in my hand,
I want to keep it handy
In case somebody doesn't understand.
So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true,
But please let me keep my paint brush with me
Until I love me, too.

School.
Assignments.
Tests.
Reports.
Presentations.
Friends.
Problems.
More assignments.

GAWD!
GIMME A BREAK MAN!
SHEESH!


Need to get all of it over and done with.
Hols! Soooo looking fwd to it.
Or am i?
sighs.

aite aites.
I'm gone.
Good luck ya'll!

Back lah sey. hahas.

OK i'm currently very sleepy and insanely high for god knows what reason.
(which i'm not sure of. hmm)
Trying to be as sane as possible.
Dunno why i'm so tired oso.
(gee. go figure)

Anyways, been a very hectic, evenful, uneasy week.
Yes. With lots and lots and lots of cam-whoring.
And lots and lots and lots of tests.
And LOT AND LOT AND LOTS of ASSIGNMENTS!
urgh.

And neko's still sick!
gosh.
And now Fish aint at her best too!
Gawd.
:(

Neko's the best lah.
Still sick.
Went visit her.
Still can chat chat.
Plan for hols.
Till we lepak from her viod deck, to kfc to mac.
hahas.

Babe u better get well soon aite! (:

The flow
This machine called "Belly Dancer" cause it moves like one. hahas
The end product


PICS!