Once an outcast.
Always an outcast.

I'm just so frustrated.
To this fact.
People love to say.
"Be yourself" no matter what.
But they don't really mean it that way.

Its like.
To one group of people.
I have to be this calm and quiet girl.
Don't have much of a self opinion to speak out.
Just agree and make people happy.
Or you'll just be a damned outcast.

Then to another.
I have to be this person.
Who says anything and everything.
I have to talk.
Though i don't wish to.
Or else.
I'm just labeled as this "selfish bitch".
Who cares not in sharing with others.
Just keeping things to herself.

Then to another.
I have to be this prim and proper lil brat.
Stay home.
Be good.
Follow everything told.
Never fight back no matter how intense and untrue the situation is.

Then there's one more.
Who insist i change.
To be more girly.
Be softer.
In terms of movements, speech and dressing.
Be more of who i should be. (in their opinion anyways)

Urgh.
I need to stop hiding and find the real me.
Cause i no longer know who i really am now.
I give up pretending and making ppl happy just for the sake of friendship.
x_x

Lifeless. Hopeless. Loveless. Soul-less.

Give it up.
Give up giving up.
Stagnant.
Immobile.
Unthinkable.
SD