I'm still up watching these series of shows.

Though i can barely concentrate on what the shows are about.

Days i've yet to sleep on time.

Or shall i say, barely sleep at all.

I'm still wondering what is going on with me.

This clock work person is so in need of much repair.

Yet all the help seeked seemed to turned down.

Oh what a despair.

While drifting away in my own thoughts.

As the shows goes on and on.

I suddenly remembered my old school days.

Oh no my dear not my ITE years.

I can easily say those were the best years i ever had in my educational side of life.

Though short, it was really meaningful.

Looking back at pri.

The boy who tripped me.

And i fell face first infront of everyone.

Yes i am airing out my humiliation back then.

Rather it out then it be in right?

Secondary school's by far the best.

Number one humiliation.

Or shall i say.

Taken advantage of by those who,

oh i don't know,

those who i wanted to know as my "true" friends.

Swept away by their "oh-so-awesomeness"

I actually thought they were the brothers and sisters i never had.

Yet i failed to notice that i was their entertainment.

The enslaved naive little girl who they could brainwash and make a fool of.

Yes you made me a fool back then.

But we will see who gets the last laugh.

The taunts.

The names.

The backstabbing.

The lies.

Its so clear.

Clearer even now.

I know i am not totally average.

Not when im surrounded by you,

the "populars" who had to be different form the rest.

Just cause in your own little world, you are oh so cool.

I remeber u boy, who called me, wads it again.

Short dwarf?

yea. dude. wake up. you're no knight in shining amour yourself!

I was naive then.

Trying to fit it.

Going with the flow.

Oh so i thought.

Only to end up, being ditched by my own best friend.

Just cause i ended up in a relationship.

hmm.

im still wondering if its true.

I know there was more behind it all.

As i move on to my next stage of life.

I am greatful for what i have been through.

No i don't regret knowing you guys.

Cause you helped me.

Improve.Move on. And be stronger.

I jsut hope wherever you guys are.

You've hopefully changed.

At some point at least.

Cause i know one thing's for sure.

What we need in life are not just friends.

We need true friends.

And i thank god as that is what i have now.