DESSERT HUNT UPDATES!

New Spot: BAKERZIN!

First came macaroons.

Then there were more! (:

Hani's:

Creme Bulee!

(:

SD's:

Javari Cake

(Rather. I forgot the name. So if u go bakerzin, its the cake below the pic of the creme brulee. lol)

I love you.

Feels as though the weekend never happened.
Pfft.

Been out every single day...
But enjoyed all of it in the process.
Unwasteful weekend.
Filled with much love, joy and laughter.
Friends and memories are much loved!! (:
Miss you guys already!
Mus meet soon! <3

Friday was Hudzie's birthday.
Went to meet her in evening.
Hung out and went insane all through the nite.
Marina to esplanade.
We had fun and its been like ages since we met.
Much fun indeed.

Saturday was the half planned, half un planned day.
Startled by mum's phone call.
Awoke past mid-day. Gosh!
went out to buy the new 'for once' formal shirt.
and blazer to go with it. (:
Ate aft.
Met dear and went to the IC BBQ.
The turnout was... unexpected.
But i managed to catch up on some of the old members.
Met new ones too.
Still had much fun.
Ah and Farhan came in uni!
lols.
Botak ke pe boi!
XD

Sunday!
Was actually dreading to go Little India.
But still dragged myself to accompany dear.
Passed by laselle.
WOW. (:
Then saw Shiraz!
Affordable and yummy and filling!
PLUS there was Shisha!
tho we didnt try today.
Next weekend maybe? (:
Then off to bugis.
It was insane!
From bugis to boat quay.
Cinamon meltz.
Finally he got em.
Satisfaction for his cravings.
ahah.
Then off back to his house to borrow some things.
The pro's of having a bf with a sporting sis n mum.
teehee.

Back home aftwards.
Am sooooooooo tired now.
Not looking fwd to sch.
*mumbles*
Aite more soon.
weee~
Beddy Bye! XD

GOOGIES!

The birthday girl and friends.

Me and Hani-Chan ((:

oh n ash in the back. hehe

IC BBQ!

SHIRAZ CAFE!

Yummy kebab! (:

Me n dear (:

Cookie-fied!
(:

I LOVE COOKIES!
I GOT COOKIES!
WHO WANTS COOKIES?
;D

Pics up tmr.

Cookies by SD n Hani-chan.
<3

Imma waiting for Hani.
And i am.
B-O-R-E-D.
(:

So i shall blog.

I declare this day.

THE GUMMY DAY!
*actually everyday is gummy day!*
teehee.

Tis slide.
was UNINTENTIONAL!
HONEST!
*gives the most innocent looking eyes*
i just happen to find the pics.
and it looks like gummy
hehe.

See. I found this on photobucket.
Gummy war!



I give you...
MY GUMMY CLAN!
MUAHAHAHAH!
We got PINK stickers today.
We all know how much SD dislikes pink. (:
Thus.
My reaction.
With Jannah n Biqin on each side of me.
Holding PINK stickers!


This was my AFTER reaction. hehe

I think this was like.
A few days back.
I was "dutifuly" in class.
And dearest girl there went to macs.
Jealous lah!
And i didnt know she took screenshot till today.
When she upload on FB.
lols.
p.s: my dear ur bdae watch out ahh... XDImma stop here.
Update about cookies later.
hehe.

HANI! WHERE ARE YOU!?
=\

On the looooooong bus ride home (to bedok).
I got bored.
Dear was sleeping.
I had a "acceptable" camera hp. (well at least one of us has it)

PHOTOGRAPHY FRENZY

Gummies are my tastebuds best friend. (:
p.s: dats me. the gummy!

Someone sure had a speed catcher cam for his. I love it!

Its sweet.

Grafitti Art. <3

An alternative to expressing feelings... (:

You made my day.
Made all the bitterness go away.
The anger i had now left behind.
You are truly one of a kind.
I love you soo much!
muacks!

Your simplest guestures shows it all.
Though i know i can be upset over them sometimes.
But you are the only one who understands.
Darling its always just me and you.
Forever and ever and ever true.
That is one of the reasons.
Of why.
I love you.

*Thanks soo much dear! You made me smile endlessly.. hehe.. Love you!!*

I wish you would think of what you say before you say it.
Telling me things that i did wrong.
Asking me where i learn that from.
My answer is simple.
One you will never accept.
Cause you think you are so perfect.
The whole world has to revolve around you.
Always you and only you.
You created me.
You created this book.
This is where i learnt it.
This is where i used it.
This is when you feel it.
But you are just too proud.

Too full of yourself.
Strutting around.
You ain't innocent.
Your lies are so transparent.
I'm saying this one last time.
You are transparent.

The day i fly away.
The day i get away.
No one can stop me.
I won't let them.
When i make that day the day.
It will be the day.
All you can do.
Is see me fly away.

The most uneventful.
Emo-istic.
Day ever.
Go ahead label me.
Fck you for all i care.

I was hurt.
No.
I was in much pain.
It made no difference.
It is not life threatening enough.

I pity him lying there weak and unmoved.
Still in a daze.
Oh when he wakes up he will feel the pain.

The atmosphere of that room.
I was unable to bear.
I kept fighting these tears back.
As those memories flashes back in mind.
It hurts to think.
Of what happens.
If he.
...


I won't deal with it.
I won't think about it.
He has to make it.
He is the only one left.
The only one they care for.
Pure and untouched.
Please god.
Let him leave.
Take me instead.

It has been my wish.
unfulfilled.
Claim me as i'm ever so willing.
Spare him his life.
He has a lot to live for.
Meaningful in their eyes.
I only have one.

The hell song
Sum 41
(intro-ed by Violent CW Dok)

Everybodys got their problems
Everybody says the same things to you
Its just a matter how you solve them
And knowing how to change the things youve been through

I fear Ive come to realize
How fast life can be compromised
Stand back to see whats going on
I cant believe this happened to you, this happened to you

Its just a problem that were faced with
Am I not the only one that hates to standby
Complications headed first in this line
With all these pictures running through my mind

Knowing endless consequences
I feel so useless in this
Cant patch that back and as for me, I cant believe

[chorus:]
Part of me, wont agree
Cause I dont know if its for sure
Sunnenly, suddenly
I dont feel so insecure
Anymore

Everybodys got their problems
Everybody says the same things to you
Its just a matter how you solve them
What else are we supposed to do

[chorus x2]

(why do things that matter the most
Never end up cutting close

I dont think I knew what I had) [x2]

My reality.
Is what i dream off.
What i have now.
Is my reality of nightmares.

Run.
I wish.
Each and everyday.
Run.
Far far away.

Escape.
I could only dream of.
It hurts.
To see that my dream.
Slowly melts away.
As i awake each morning.
Slipping away.
Like the waves.
Returning not to be the same.

Stormy Nights.
Crashing waves.
Those dark blackened skies.
Being lost at sea.
That where i am.
But that is not where i want to be.

Rescue me.
Get me out of this dream.
This nightmare.
Bring me back.
To my reality.
The one i want.
The one i need.
The one where there is you and me.

With each waking moment.
A part of me crumbles away.
Blown by the wind.
Invisible dust.

How long more.
Do i have to be this way.
How long more.
Do i have to endure this.
How long more.
How long more.
How long.
Tell me.

Quando.
Quando.
Quando.

Moody Dayz.
Seems like its for everyone.
Self declared holiday anyone?
Even i'm affected.
Geez.
Moody-ness is contagious!
=\

Mood swings all around.
Being easily irritated and bugged.
Lacking of sleep.
School's not helping either.
*Come throw ice cold water at me*
Wake me up!

How i wish things were different.
Sighs.

The best things in life.
Are yet to come.
The best things in life.
Would come from the worst you had.
Is that true?
If it is.
Why does it feel so wrong?
No don't throw that old school bullsh*t at me.
I mean it when I say.
Why does it feel so wrong?
And.
Why does the bad always come along.
Where's the good?
Where's the justice.
Oh the questions.
It's literally killing me.
=\

To all.
Seriously i mean it when i say.
My bro's in the hosp.
No joke.
So please.
Stop accusing me of fraud.
Just cause i can't be out.
With you.
It's not that i don't want to.
It's cos i can't.
Please understand.
And stop these rumors.
If you are truly a friend.
You would have understand.

For now i say.
I've lost many.
Gained a lot.
Though no one i meet.
Are ever the same.
These impressions they leave on me.
All so different.
Sighs.
If only...

Unstable me.
Its back.
I'm a walking time bomb.
Don't mind me.
It's me.
If you really want to see.
This is who i am.
The truth.

End.

=\

With the meal serving which already came with a watermelon slice.
There accompanied with it.
Was a packet of Fruit Salad.
*Fruit salad. Yummy yummy!*
(:

Its been an improvement.
All seemed better now.
Rain came pouring down late evening.
Just what we all needed.

Nearly suffocated in the four walls.
Pfft.
Note to self.
Bring laptop and play games.
(:

Sleepy.
Yet not wanting to sleep.
Hungry.
Yet too lazy to get up.
Wanting to get things ready for sch.
Too tired to move about.
I feel worse then a couch potato.
:\

Miss teddy dear!
In much need of his warm hugs.
But.
It can wait.
Distance makes the heart grow fonder.
Meeting too much = JELAK LA!
(:

Night fell.
Day's gona break soon.
Time for me to hop on the snooze train.
Till tmr.
Nite ya'll.

*I still feel the same. That note you called suicide.*

What kinda doc breaks a test tube filled with blood and fail to get it cleaned!
Esp infectious blood.
Wth.
You go buy your certs ah?
Wait. No.
I'd say.
These kinda docs should go back ITE and take Lab Safety Practices.
Maybe they'll get smth in thier head.
Pffft.

If i was to be admitted for a long period of time.
I would request other hosp.
Seriously.
From what i've seen.
Ish.
Speechless.

Vivo with dear, hani and mamat.
Transformers!
Like finally.
OMG the show was good. (:
Thumbs up!

Met Shari at the hosp.
Lift attendant.
haha.
No one informed him about installation nite.
pfft.
How cruel.
Oh wells.
Wen you're out.
You're forgotten.
Seem that way now.
Too bad.

Run run run.
My mind's running wild.
Flashbacks.
Of every little thing.
Random things.
Correction.
Random memories.
Freaks me out sometimes.
Still i guess its about time.
Though its driving me to the edge.
Back to that edge.
Which i evaded for soo long.
Why now?

Desperate.
Looking for a way out.
Please.
Let me out.

Run run run.
Forever will be.
That way.
That is my life.
Run.

Like hands of evil.
Trying to grip me tight.
Not let me go.
Impose nightmares of my past.
Leave me helpless and hopeless.
Dragging me down every inch of the way.
Till the day.
They manage to take my life away.
Or I willingly give it up to them.
These hands of evil.

I deserve it.

Those tears i shed.
Meant nothing.
The feelings i said out.
Seemed meaningless now.
I wonder sometimes.
Is it me that you really want?
Or is it?
Forget it.

Coming to this.
I wonder who my real friends will be.
Now.
In this new place.
In this new time.
I wonder.

If you know the real me.
My past reality.
My current wants.
My desires.
My status.
Would you.
Still be my friend?

U see me as me.
Knowing so much.
Looking like i know everything.
But do you really know me?

Unmask me of this innocent look.
Come see beyond what you know.
Take a ride into my life.
You'll find me.
Hopefully.

Burried under all these lies.
These deceptions.
These hopes.
These dreams.
Shattered.
Can you see me?
Can you find me?
Do you still want to be near me?

This tainted mind and heart.
This is all i've got.
Can you accept it?
Or will you be.
One of them.

I want to know.
Never judge a book by its cover.
Never.
Ever.
Never.

*Please leave me in that corner alone.*
*At the back of this haunting mind.*
*If you can't accept who i am.*
*Run for your life now.*
*Spare yourself*
*Be free*
*Run*
(:

End.

~ GUMMY! GUMMY! GUMMY! GUMMY! ~

Gummy wants. Gummy needs.

My Teddy "Gummy" Bear

IMY! (:

<3

This time. This day.

When i say.

I'm gona do smth.

I mean it.

No more changing minds.

No more annoyance nagging.

No more No more No more!

So when i say i do it.

Stop stopping me.

Cos i wun change my mind.

For the sake of your own happiness.

SD.

Loves being alone.

Needs to be alone.

But this being alone.

It has limits.

Which she can't control.

Going beyond it.

Drives her to insanity.

So help me god.

To control my limit.

Of this thing.

Called.

Being Alone.

My past caught up to me.

Taking me to long gone memories.

Which i choose to keep rather then solve there and then.

What regrets.

None.

All i want.

Is to have a piece of mind.

Them days are over.

Those wicked days.

Of them.

Making me do things for them.

Making me the isolated one.

To be used.

To be controlled.

THEY ARE OVER!

It's time for a new start.

Where i do what i want.

You don't control me.

I control myself.

And you just...

Control you.

(:

All's well that end's well.

So they say.

I'm awaiting that day.

Soon enough.

That day will come.

Goodbye.

Oh oh.

The first time ever.

I had a proper conversation with dear's brother.

The one besides the "What's that book about?".

He talked abt the interview he had at my sch.

Like i told dear.

THANK GOD.

They said he is over qualified.

I wouldn't want to see him around.

That'll just be freaky.

Oh and.

Its amazing how different the way we communicate now.

Less.

Sarcasm.

No fun tho.

(: