A day to remember(?)

Woke up at 9.
Snoozed till 12.
Went to visit grandad.
Ride around town to see the lights.
Head back home surrounded by gamers, complainers, hungry monsters and my beloved technologies.

Found a name for it.
Frazzy!
yes.

Moving on.
Full weekend ahead.
Out with friends and such.

Lets see how messed up it will be shall we?

Love of Me.

Slowly. But surely. Learning to love this life. Bit by bit.
Slowly. Learning to love myself.

From experience i had lately. To the people i talk to. To the people who show they actually care. To those who are missed oh so much. To the way my mind thinks now. Lets just say...


Biggest lesson learnt in life. Over and over again. Yet we don't really enforce what we learn. Just like sch? At some pt. Well. this is my view at least.

All in all i guess. Even of you don't realise you enforce this thing you've learnt. I guess knowing it deep down inside thought forgotten, it better than nothing rite? Like what people say...

"All I Need Is You"
The Click Five

You're scared
It shows
Been there
You're not prepared to be
In love
With me
So soon cause you've been through enough to have
Something hold you back

We don't need to go that far
Let's hold on to where we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you

They say
Don't waste
Your time
They're obviously blind

So let's
Forget
The words the thoughts they put into your head
Don't give up just yet

We don't need to go that far
Let's hold on to where we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you

We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is --

Baby, maybe we should start somewhere
Baby, let me in your heart
Before we fall apart

We don't need to go too far
Let's hold on to who we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you

We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is you
All I need is you
All I need is you

Running Away - Hoobastank

I don't want you, to give it all up
And leave your own life, collecting dust
And I don't want you, to feel sorry for me
You never gave us, a chance to be

And I don't need you, to be by my side
To tell me, that everything's alright
I just wanted you, to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you

[Chorus]
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?

Cause I did enough, to show you that I
Was willing to give, and sacrifice
And I was the one, who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough

And when I get close, you turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you, to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you

[Chorus]
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?

Is it me, is it you? (is it me, is it you)
Nothing that, I can do (nothing that, I can do)
To make you, change your mind (to make you)

Is it me, is it you? (so why do - you run - away)
Nothing that, I can do (won’t you tell me)
Is it a, waste of time? (why do - you run - away)

Is it me, is it you?
Nothing that, I can do
To make you, change your mind - no

[Chorus]
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away? (what is it, I have to say)

[Chorus]
So why are you running away? (to make you admit, you're afraid)
Why are you running away?

I can't live a lie.
I can't keep on going like this.
The pain of the truth.
Is killing me inside.
But to let out the truth.
Will leave me all alone.
Not a problem there.
Something i have to bear with.
The problem is.
The hurt and pain it'll cause you.
The both of you.

I can't go on living each day.
Knowing that i've done this.
That this cycle has repeated itself all over again.
That nothing can be done to avoid all this.

You've instill fear in me.
In a way that shows little on the outside.
It has been ringing in my mind.
On and on each day.
Its really like a repeat of the past.
How could this be.

And you.
You show yourself.
Pour out your feelings.
Interests.
That's all.
Is it safe to go on?
Or should i cut all ties now?

How can all this be resolved?
Why does this always happen?
Why can't i step out of such a situation?
Why can't i just be normal?
Why?

Oh god please save me from all this.
I've had enough.
I need to see how to endure all this.
To make it all go away.

I wish i knew.
I really wish i knew.

Another rainy day.
Wish i was at school. Really.
Sorry Feeq!

Anyways.
Physics UT yest.
Was pure (&)!@*^&5$%@(&
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Thank god i had plans to meet up Khai for a movie.
Really helped alot.
Watched Jennifer's Body.
Khai's "second gf" haha!
It wasn't at all what i expected.
But it was an ok2 show uh.
Quite funny really.

Oh and my dear friend finally found out where one fullerton is.
-_-
*Khai seriously where the hell have you been these years? haha!*
Though i still owe him brownies. err. hehe?

Gotta get back to sch later for the cult filming.
Hows a girl to scream when she's sick?
hmm.

Wonder how we're gonna film if it still rains?!

OK moving on.
Tmr's like gonna like be like a full day
sighs.
But should be worth all of it definitely! (:

Good friends. Good laughter. Good fun. (:

As he let me free fall half body backwards down,
And pulled me up once more.
All i could say was, "now that was fun".
And he went, "no dear that was blood rush"

The second time round.
He said the same thing to me.
And what i said was, "If that was blood rush, then what is the red liquid that flows when you have a cut on your skin?"
He went "that blood dear"
And so i asked the question again.

But what i meant to say was.
"If that was blood rush(rash), then what is the red liquid that flows when you have a cut on your skin?"

*since u ppl call me rash which sounds like rush. hehe. when he said "blood rUsh", it sounded like "blood, Rash". keke"

His reaction after realising this was priceless. (:
^^v

Desperate People Looking For Their Desperate Halves.

Random?
No.
Truth?
Yes.
Me?
No.
Someone i know?
Yes. Rather. Someone(s).


I don't get it.
Why can't people just move on.
Instead on lingering on.
Its...
Irritating?
No.
Annoying?
No.
A desperate act of self pity?
Yes.

Sometimes i wish there were those groups for all the poor souls.
To teach them to stop looking for self pity.
Instead be stronger and move on.
Ok so i get it, its hard to move on.
But there's this thing called.
No point finding fault?

I get it like you can get pissed just cause your jealous.
But lets face it.
Its reality.
So why bother someone else about your sap story?
It's meaningless.
Your wasting someone else's time.
And lets face it.
You plastering "DESPERATE" all over you!
Wake up already!
Sheesh.

No i'm not doing this to pin point someone(s).
I'm doing this in hope that this person reads it.
Or someone tells this to the person.
So this person can wake up.
Move on.
Like this person said this person is doing.
Sigh.

I'm sorry if this offends any of you.
Its just how i feel.
My last relationship ended cause some f*cker meddled in it.
No i do not want it to happen again.
So if you're unhappy.
Come talk to me face to face ok.

p.s: Ash. This is not refering to you at all. It's someone else whom we both know. (: